Q:Hi, Jin! I'm Rachel. I've been "following" your work for a few years now, starting at DeviantART. I'm not into cosplay, myself, but I always enjoy seeing your photos and posts documenting such. Plus, you're just an all-around great person, as far as I can see. I recently realized that I've never heard your voice. Which isn't a big deal, really... but it got me curious. Are there any videos out there featuring your voice? ...Or, would you be willing to record a short something? :)
Hi, Rachel! Thank you for the kind words. You are so sweet. And now I must apologize for to answer your question I shall link a video that might persuade you to lose your respect for me. Hahaha!
Here is a video of me and my friends in a karaoke room. Our voices get mixed together at times but at 0:57 it’s kind of hard to miss me.
For some of you guys, this may be your first time hearing my voice. I’m sorry it had to be like this. Hahaha!
The above quote much sums up my previous post about Fake Your Face Video Project (click the link for info and how to contribute) by Emily and Imaan.
Truth be told, there was a time I was impressionable enough to be dictated upon by the media. I used to be really conscious about every little thing that was “wrong” with my face. At times I would wish they could get fixed with magic (for sharp objects make me uncomfortable). Being traumatized by celebrity cosmetic surgery disasters helped shove that idea out of my head.
That aside, just getting over myself and shifting focus to other people and talking to them also broke the mold of my ideas about beauty.
People whose looks so many others look up to and consider “perfect” — I found out that even they can be incredibly insecure and unhappy with their appearance. Maybe it’s just something we all go through. I’ve even learned that sometimes the feature I think is most attractive on a person, is the very thing that they don’t like about themselves. So if you’re feeling ugly, doesn’t necessarily mean that other people see you as such. They could even be thinking the opposite.
There are a couple of people I consider some of the most beautiful individuals I’ve ever seen. They’re not supermodels or anything like that. And what I love about them are their quirks: his eyebags and dark circles that emphasize his soulful eyes, the way her lips look when the lipstick has been partially smudged off, his upturned nostrils, her goofy smile and uneven teeth, his unruly and expressive eyebrows, the way her legs look like her kicks would make guys cry, the way he talks through only one side of his mouth.
Some of you are probably laughing at me, but those are honestly the traits I find impossibly attractive and endearing on those people. It might sound weird but that kinda made me feel that maybe someone would also appreciate my peculiar features the same way. That was enough for a little boost of confidence, and reassurance that I’m fine just the way I am.
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Q:Have you ever thought of giving up? If so then how did you force yourself to continue? Uhm.... I'm sorry at the moment I do not even know how to comfort myself T_T
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Hi there. I hope you were able to read this post.
That aside, I do hope you know it’s normal for absolutely anyone to get depressed. I do know what it feels like to be in that place. And I know it’s easier said than done but you really just need to hang on.
I’m not sure how you got to where you are, but I hope it helps to say that we’re all bound to make mistakes. If you made one, own up to it. If other people wronged you, do something about it. The things is, we also have the power to make things better for ourselves. Learn from the bad things that happen. Make it so you can look back at what you did wrong and be thankful that it led you to something good.
Go outside and spend time with people. It can be pretty destructive to hole yourself up and wallow in negative emotions. Talk to your friends. They won’t judge you and will be happy to be there for you if they understand friendship.
There are also things you can do alone. I found a lot of solace in music. Sometimes it just helps to hear what you feel in your heart being sung by someone else so you feel a little less alone. Songs that immediately come to mind are by My Chemical Romance. (I’m so predictable.)
You can try starting with Famous Last Words
I find this part particularly cathartic:
Is it hard understanding
I’m incomplete
A love that’s so demanding
I get weak
And the chorus is extremely empowering:
I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay, I’ll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home
You can follow that up with Welcome To The Black Parade
My anthem:
On and on we carry through the fears
Disappointed faces of your peers
Take a look at me, ‘cause I could not care at all
Do or die, you’ll never make me
Because the world will never take my heart
Go and try, you’ll never break me
We want it all, we wanna play this part
I won’t explain or say I’m sorry
I’m unashamed, I’m gonna show my scar
Give a cheer for all the broken
Listen here, because it’s who we are
I‘m just a man, I’m not a hero
Just a boy, who had to sing this song
I’m just a man, I’m not a hero
I. DON’T. CARE.
We’ll carry on!
And when you feel stronger, SING
Sing it out, boy, you got to see what tomorrow brings
Sing it out, girl, you got to be what tomorrow needs
For every time that they want to count you out
Use your voice, every single time you open up your mouth
Sing it for the boys,
Sing it for the girls
Every time that you lose it, sing it for the world
Sing it from the heart
Sing it till you’re nuts
Sing it out for the ones that’ll hate your guts
Sing it for the deaf
Sing it for the blind
Sing about everyone that you left behind
Sing it for the world
Sing it for the world
The world can be such a crazy ugly place, and if we were to spend all our time thinking about all the bad stuff in it, we’d all be pretty nucking futs.
You need to focus on the things you have to be thankful for. Start small. I used to find comfort even in trivial things like finding a simple chocolate cake that tasted just like I wished it would. The nice feeling of a cool breeze on a hot day. Sometimes I would go for a walk at sunrise and just taking in how beautiful the world looks bathed in morning light.
These little things will add up and get you through, and hopefully soon you’ll find yourself much happier than you thought you could ever be. :)
AND WILL EVERYONE PLEASE NOTICE HOW THEY HAD TO PHOTOSHOP PANTS ON GERARD BECAUSE HE DECIDED TO WEAR HIS SHORT SHORTS THAT DAY AND THE MAGAZINE PEOPLE OBVIOUS HAD A PROBLEM WITH HIS DENIM UNDERWEAR AND DECIDED TO MAKE HIM LOOK LESS HOMOSEXUAL.
most celebrities get their bodies airbrushed in photoshop to make them look more attractive on magazines
they just blacked out gerard’s legs
there was no hope
UMMM. BRB LOLING FOREVER. I LIKE THIS SHOOT EVEN MORE NOW?
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Last Friday, I had the incredible privilege of attending another talk by a fine artist I greatly admire, James Jean. You may read my blog post about it here.
I recorded his talk for the sake of my friends who couldn’t go with me that day. Here’s a short clip I wanted to share with you guys — when James Jean talks about tentacle rape and working with Gerard Way in making the album artwork for The Black Parade. Hearing an artist I hold in such high regard talk about (however candidly) working with another person I greatly admire made my heart jump a little.
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Killjoys, make some noise! (MCR FAN TRIBUTE)
Oh wow, bichura made an animated photo set of our character intros from our Danger Days tribute video! Thank you!
While watching Are You Afraid of the Dark? on fuckyeah1990s streaming channel
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I encourage everyone to watch this video of quotes from Gerard, whether you like My Chemical Romance or not. This is why they are my heroes.
It’s for everyone who’s ever felt depressed
or hurt
or rejected
or treated like an outsider
for being different.
Some of Gerard’s words from the video:
● Nothing is worth hurting yourself over. NOTHING is worth taking your life over.
● The difference we wanna make is, number one, to make these kids know that they’re not alone, that they’re actually not that messed up and that they can do whatever they want… And really just to get people to get over their stuff so they can live.
● It’s more important to keep yourself alive, there’s nothing worth even hurting yourself over… It’s normal, it’s completely normal to be depressed.
● I mean, we started this band thinking the world was extremely ugly. And I think now we realize that it’s more beautiful than we thought.
● So if anything, you can take it from a guy and his band who used to think everything was shit. And we’ve found that it’s not.
And from me:
You are never, ever alone. There are people out there who will understand you. You just have to reach out. Don’t shut yourself out, don’t take it out on other people by hurting them, and definitely never take your own life. You just have to keep living, and be kind, and be yourself — and you’ll find that despite how terrible the world can be, it can be really beautiful too.
(Source: fuckyeahmcrquotes)
Open up your heart. You might get hurt along the way because it’s a fact of life that bad people exist, but eventually you’ll find at least one true friend who will make it all worth it.
As I’ve said before: It’s okay to be you. It’s okay to be weird.
Other people’s opinion of you shouldn’t matter. Don’t miss out on opportunities to do things you love just because you don’t want other people saying mean things about you.
It’s your life and your time, and it’s YOU who has to live with the consequences of your decisions so make them for yourself. You should always strive to make yourself happy over all others.
(Source: fuckyeahgerardquotes)
The fine print on the above quote is that you should also be able to differentiate when people are just giving you shit to bring you down, or if people who actually care about you are trying to give you advice to be a better person. You don’t give your friends the middle finger. You work on issues together. Sometimes it can hurt to hear what you’ve been doing wrong, but real friends stab each other at the front, and with the best and purest of intentions.
You will find people out there who will love you for who you are. They will accept your imperfections, your shortcomings, your mistakes.
Be yourself and be kind. Things will get better. They did for us, and they can for you.
Some people seem to see me and my friends as a group of happy-go-lucky miscreants without a care in the world.
But I think the reason my friends are so kind, and the reason we embrace having fun so much is that we know all too well what it’s like to be hurt, and what it’s like to be depressed. We’ve been there. Some of us are still dealing with it. Our lives are far from perfect, we’re still human and make our share of mistakes, and we continue to work on ourselves one day at a time. Life doesn’t have to be perfect for it to be beautiful.
And the reason I share the things we do with you guys is to remind you to laugh, and to give hope to those who need it that you can make things better.
A lot of you have come to know me through my dA account, and through my dA journal posts particularly. One of the reasons I started blogging was just to remind myself of the things I have to be thankful for — the wonderful people in my life, and how much our silly adventures make me smile and laugh, and how they make life worth living. I needed that to look back on whenever I’d feel teetering on the edge of depression. Something that came as an unexpected blessing was how I received letters from people saying how somehow I had saved them. That my friends and I had given them something to believe in.
To hear that is more than I could have ever hoped to get in return for blogging. On behalf of my friends, I’d also like to say THANK YOU to you guys who have stuck with us and believed in us and inspired us to be better human beings. Your faith means more to us than you know.
(Source: fuckyeahgerardquotes)
If you think I might be able to help you with something related to this post, send me a message. (You can ask anonymously, or I can answer privately if you request it.) It takes me a while to reply sometimes, but I will do my best.
For what it’s worth, I’m here for you.
xoxo
Jin
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Melo, Jin, Miguel and Bok rock out to Welcome to the Black Parade at the karaoke bar, while Dom tries to hide the fact that he is in all honesty rather embarrassed to be seen with them.
From our self-blackmailing MCR karaoke video here.
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gerard drawing some really darn cute pictures
Gerard’s concept art for the Every Snowflake Is Different costumes! I love seeing his drawings for these things!
It is hilarious and incredibly endearing to me how he wrote “Jarrod’s jacket should be purple but I didn’t have any purple so it’s magenta/pink”
GERARD, YOU WENT TO ART SCHOOL. YOU HAVE A RED MARKER. AND A BLUE MARKER.
Or if you run that light sky blue color over the magenta, I reckon you’d get a nice purple.
BUT EVEN IF YOU ARE UNABLE TO MAKE PURPLE BY YOURSELF I WOULD FOLLOW YOU TO THE ENDS OF THE EARTH
Source: mychemicalromance.com
This is what happens when my friends and I go to a karaoke place and sing My Chemical Romance songs. The first one is from Welcome to the Black Parade, and the rest is from Helena. Miguel and I wore our Black Parade jackets to make it more fun and ridiculous. Hahaha!
I love my friends. We never let each other do stupid things …alone.
If you are brave and actually want to see the videos of us singing, I uploaded them as well because we love making our readers at http://tuxteam.net laugh (even at the expense of our dignity, which is usually the case)
● This Is How (Badly) We Do Karaoke: Helena — Proof that we are always compelled to reenact the video whenever we hear the song. Remember: The real show is with the two at the back.
● My Chemical Romance Karaoke: We’re doing it wrong — Unlike the previous video, this has no overlay of the original tracks, so you’ll hear us singing/screaming. This is a collections of assorted short clips from a karaoke session during which we sang MCR songs like Welcome to the Black Parade, I’m Not Okay (I Promise) during which I scare myself a little, and Planetary (GO!). Oh, and there is one special surprise ultra badass song at the end.
Dignity? What’s that?
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My name is Jin. I'm a freelance painter, illustrator and photographer from the Philippines. 
